I realize I have little say in many life matters. Right now, that is apparent in not knowing when Baby will arrive. In the past, I faced this dealing with the unknowns and fears of pain. Regardless of the circumstance, I am not in control. Because I cannot change certain aspects in my life, it is that much more important for me to learn techniques that give me a sense of peace, purpose and balance. I must see that I do have power over the way I respond.

The past few days I have spent focusing inward, finding ways to handle my current situation. In order to move forward without stress or anxiety, I am reinventing a new “me.” A "me" that is grateful for little things in my days, a "me" that can acknowledge fears while staying positive, a "me" that is hopeful and content.

I am pulling out old meditation CDs to relax the mind, body and spirit. I am thinking about what I eat to make sure I only feed myself healing foods. I am lighting more candles while envisioning how I want the next two months to unfold. I am connecting with spiritual coaches to help clear hindering beliefs so I can find serenity.

In a nutshell, I am living life by my rules. I making sure to do things that make me happy and calm which will therefore prepare me for whatever life has in store for me.

To those who also currently feel life is spinning out of control, I hope you too can find some good in your day. Continue to look for those answers, believe in the unimaginable and trust that better times are ahead.

Believing in Miracles,

Nicole Hemmenway

            Author of “No, It Is NOT In My Head: The Journey of a Chronic Pain Survivor from Wheelchair to Marathon”